Friday, February 17, 2012

Poem::: Of Heart and Doubt

I hold a steady hand upon my beating heart
As I begin to think.
I cry to drain my drowning mind
So I may leave sad memories behind.

The tears paint my face with a black line,
But soon it will be fine.
I have a stinging heart that dies to reach for your comfort,
But careful thoughts have led me astray.

Arrogance has put me in a position of doubt;
It is this doubt that tells me not to get too close to you.
I'm wise and bold,
But yet you have more love for me than I do for you.
Your hands are so warm,
Yet mine are so cold.

My heart begs and pleas to my doubts to leave my thoughts alone,
But in my heart’s company does it remain.

So now I lay,
Stuck in the cross fires of my core and uncertainty.
The tears are searing my eyes shut,
And force me into dreamless sleep.

My face still painted in tears of black,
My chest beats fast like an attack,
And my doubts continue to mock my weakening heart.

For it has been noted
That you are devoted,
But I a lark
With love painted dark,
And wings that must be set lose to fly.

Your love is true,
My love is black and blue...

Misc. Writing::: What is Love?

            Love is the eternal connection between a person and their soul.  It ties onto the emotions that we take with us through out our lives and brings us the joys that we share with the people in our lives.  Love is brushing the hair over someone’s ear or just sitting in the parking lot at Brick Steamer sharing an ice cream.  It’s found everywhere you look; the gardener who loves his flowers are in full bloom for our hungry eyes to feast upon, the nurturing mother raises her child so that we can enjoy his good company when he has grown, and the hard working Olympic team who loves the feeling of victory on their sweating brow.
            It comes in all shapes and sizes, its shown in many ways, and it’s the one thing that will never go out of style.  What love does not do however is taunt you like an angry man swings a piece of steak in front of a slimming dog.  Love can fade, but it is never lost in our hearts.  Even the most harden person who holds a grudge could never forget the love he once shared with the one who causes him pain.  His grudge could never hold as long as that love.  It returns joy and always concurs over all toil.
            It is forgiving and never vengeful.  It is always beautiful, even if it is being shown in the most peculiar of ways.  It can wear thin at times, but after careful repairs and become stronger than ever.  It should be cherished forever and never forgotten by those whom have felt its immense power! 

Informative and Personal Essay::: The Runner's Mentality

Its 5 A.M on a Tuesday morning and I’m slipping my shoes on. Not sandals, nor slippers. Nope, I’m slipping on my cross trainers; for those of you who don’t know what cross trainers are, they are a specialized type of shoe for runners. The reason why I’m up this early is because I have a race. I’m up to tell myself little mantras and to down two cups of coffee before I begin my short warm up run before yoga, but at 4 o’clock in the afternoon, when the gun goes off, the world stops and that race will have begun. When runners hear the sound of a gun, it clicks within their mind that nothing else matters in that moment but making it to the finish line before their opponents. However, the question of many who witness distance runners out in even the most undesirable conditions is “why do they do it?”
Neuroscientist and psychologists are too baffled by the extreme stamina of certain runners such as Olympic runner Dana Kastor, who after training for several months for her race would overcome injury after injury without giving up on her goal of taking home the gold medal. Runners will often find themselves in such a state of euphoria that they could only say that it was brought on by their spirit and will to go the distance. Some will do it because they love the feeling of the open air and wind in their face, but many will tell you that it is because they have developed a complex in their mind that they must run to better themselves in some way or to decrease their anxieties of day to day life.
When someone says that they wish that they could run away from their own troubles, I myself can certainly say that I will go out on a ten mile run in the wee hours of the morning just to forget about why my friend spoke harshly towards me or why my mother was angry with me the night before. It is that mental drive of fear or anger that could bring even the best of runners over the edge. Even the famed American Olympian 5,000K runner Steven Prefontaine, who during one of his collegic NCAA races had run with one of his worst injuries.
Many sports scientist and sports psychologist have agreed upon one theory, that being the ‘Endorphin Hypothesis’. The hypothesis, which claimed that there was an increase production of the body’s own opioids in the brain (ScienceDaily.com), has been put to the test in several different laboratory settings, but has yet to have been proven as to whether or not the euphoric feeling that overcomes oneself following a long run is the body’s own ‘high’. However, neuroscientists from the Technische Uniiversitat Munchen (TUM) and the University of Bonn believe that they have proven the ‘Endorphin Hypothesis’.
The experiment that they had conducted involved screening ten athletes before and after a two hour long distance run using PET scanning. By using a radioactive substance called diprenorphine ([18F]FDPN), which binds to the opiate receptors in the brain and hence competes with the endorphins, they were able to observe the levels of endorphin production within their brains. “The more endorphins that are produced in the athlete’s brain, the more the opioid receptors are blocked,” says Professor Henning Boecker (ScienceDaily.com), who conducted the research at TUM.
“Respectively the opioid receptor binding of the [18F]FDPN decreases, since there is a direct competition between endorphins in the brain and the injected substance.”
The experiment showed that by comparing the images before and after two hours of long distance running the study could demonstrate a significantly decreased binding of the [18F]FDPN. Over all the experiment seemed to be a success, but in looking at it, there were a view uneven variables such as how many men there were to women involved, the amount of radioactive material placed in each athlete (which one may assume was equal) and the athleticism of each participant. As much truth that the experiment may hold like the fact that endorphins that are released is the body’s own way of coping with pain when one commits to their endurance training, those variables must still be there to prove the hypothesis. So until those variables are included, neuroscientists must still accept the fact that it is still just a theory.

Informative Essay::: William J. Bowerman

In the small town of Fossil, Oregon had once lived a man; a man that forever changed the American view on running. The young men who attended the University of Oregon in the early 1960’s, who ran for the track and field team knew this man as Bill, for he was not fond of the title of coach; Bill’s own high school football coach who demanded that his players called him by such a title (Moore, Kenny). He raised his team to the top by coaching twenty-four NCAA championship runners and thirty-one Olympic runners, one of them being the famed 5k record breaking runner, Steve Prefontaine. Also, among those that he led to victory, he coached a record of sixteen sub-four minute milers, more than any other coach in history (NNDB: Tracking the Entire World). However, it was not just his accomplishments as a coach that had made him well known, but his cofounding of one of the largest athletic based companies in the world. His knowledge and passion for the sport of running would launch that company into becoming a multimillion dollar fortune. William J. Bowerman would be in every runner’s mind as one of the greatest track coaches in history.
            The legendary story of this man’s claim to fame in the world of running began in 1948, when he joined the faculty of the University of Oregon, placed in Eugene, Oregon, as a professor and head track coach following his mentor, Bill Hayward, who retired the year before. As the coach of the UO track and field team, he taught his athletes discipline and how hard work could pay off in the long run. To help his team understand the meaning of hard work, he ensured each team member had a job at the local lumber mill in order to help them pay off their own room and board fees (Oregon Experience video). He held a strong, steady team that he had made into his pride and joy. Aptly naming his runners “The Men of Oregon,” he shaped each and every member of this group into a full grown man who could understand his intellect and mold it into their own.
Bill’s ideals as a coach were explained to these men at their annual team picnic, which was held at Bowerman’s house (Moore, Kenny). As described by former athlete Kenny Moore in his biographical tribute to Bowerman, he says, “A few upper classmen nodded. Bowerman didn’t have a central organizing principle. He had this, a central organizing parable.
“Farmer can’t get his mule to plow,” he said. “Can’t even get him out to eat or drink. Finally calls in a mule skinner. Guy comes out, doesn’t even look at the mule. Goes in the barn, gets a two-by-four and hits the mule as hard as he can between the ears. Mule goes to his knees. Mule skinner hits him again, between the eyes. Farmer drags him off. ‘That’s supposed to get him to plow? That’s supposed to get him to drink?’
            ‘I can see you don’t know a damn thing about mules,’ says the skinner. ‘First you have to get their attention.’”[1]
            It was this very parable that had instilled the fervor that Bowerman had for the sport, in which would remain in the minds all of his athletes. Bill would be known in the town of Eugene as a tough coach to handle. However, he always got the job done right because for Bowerman, it was not just about the ability of the runners, but the technicalities that are put into shaping oneself into an athlete.
Bill tried to improve his athletes' performance in every way. This included monitoring their diets by experimenting with recipes for sports drinks and tailoring lighter-weight uniforms (OPB.org timeline of Bowerman).  In the 1950’s, he began cobbling lighter-weight racing shoes and tested the prototypes on his runners. After trying to send his innovative track shoe designs to shoe companies across the United States, only to have them rejected, he decided to make his own shoes in his workshop[2]. He made custom fit shoes with his own two hands for each and every one of his runners. He tested all manners of materials, ranging from the lightest leathers, nylon, mesh, even rattlesnake’s skin[3]. His method was simplicity, thus his reasoning for using glue instead of stitching on the shoes. Unfortunately, his use of glue would suffer in his efforts to create a shoe weighing less than five ounces. He faced the challenge of soggy cinder tracks during rain storms, which boded no good for the shoes that he had work so hard to make. Bowerman took on this challenge and had gone to work on testing new types of track surfaces that could withstand the uneasy northwestern weather. He got to work, laying down mixtures of rubber and tar around his land to test his ideas out, giving way to his invention of the “all-weather” track surface (Oregon Experience). Bill’s attention to detail and the technicalities of the sport was all for the sake of gaining competitive edge on his team’s behalf. This careful attention to detail would show in 1962, when the UO track team had won its first NCAA championship, followed by more wins in 1964, 1965, and 1970.
In the same year that he had led his team to its first NCAA victory, he had traveled to New Zealand with his world-record-holding four-mile relay team, where he met fellow coach Arthur Lydiard (OPB.org timeline of Bowerman). It was Lydiard who would introduce Bowerman to a new, slow paced style of running called “jogging” (Gale Biography). Upon his return home, Bill had enlisted the help of his UO runners in hopes of putting the town of Eugene, Oregon on the map.  With the help of the “Men of Oregon” and local cardiologist Waldo Harris, M.D, he would start the town’s first running club (OPB.org timeline of Bowerman). On the first day, over a thousand people flocked to Hayward field to run. Being overwhelmed by his own lack of physical fitness, he too began to jog. Several years later, after receiving many letters from across the country for fitness advice, Bowerman had begun writing his book “Jogging,” which became a best seller in 1967[4].
With having led such an incredible team throughout his years of coaching at UO, he had been given the privilege of coaching the 1972 US Olympic track team in Munich, Germany (NNDB: Tracking the Entire World article). That year, he would bring home five gold medals, seven silver, and five bronze. But what had come as a shock to the nation as it watched the Olympics from their television sets, was that one of those medals had not been awarded to the US in the 5k. This upset was brought on by Steve Prefontaine, the famous record breaking 5k runner who had become very close with Bowerman as his coach.  Bowerman was not surprised by this upset, for on Sept. 5, the 11th day of the games, Palestinian terrorists destroyed the illusion of peace by raiding the Olympic Village, killing two Israelis and taking nine others hostage, placing grief on the shoulders of all of the athletes in attendance (HickokSports.com article). Despite the tragic events in Munich, Bowerman had not been shaken of his spirit. With these being the accomplishments that he had made over the years as a coach, they could not compare to that of which he had made as a business man in the athletic industry on the side.
On January 20th, 1964, Bowerman invested $500 with a former student-athlete, Phil Knight, to cofound Blue Ribbon Sports[5]. A quote from Bowerman’s wife as she recalls that day: I always felt a very personal connection to the birth of Nike […] because our original five hundred dollars came from a small savings account I had accumulated.”[6]
 The existence of this account she had hidden from Bill until then. On January 30th, Knight wrote to his coach with good news: “With a hearty ichi ban [Japanese] Blue Ribbon Sports got off the ground on Monday with an order for 300 pairs of shoes.” (Ch.17 cont.)
The name of this company would be changed to Nike [name inspired by the greek god of victory] in 1972. In that same year, Bowerman would retire from his position at the University of Oregon and would continue to consult and coach Olympic runners, including Steve Prefontaine, and design and consult for Nike. By the time Nike went public in 1980, Bowerman’s $500 investment was worth about $9M (NNDB: Tracking the Entire World article). In honor of Bowerman’s long reputation for the perfecting of a light-weight running flat, last year Nike's running division decided to launch a collection of running shoes called the Bowerman Series.
"When I think of Bill Bowerman, I think of integrity, honesty and innovation," says Kirk Richardson, head of Nike's running division, "and those qualities serve as the foundation of the Bowerman Series--the best running footwear Nike has ever made.”[7]
Later on in his career, he compiled a book filled with his notes and research that he had collected over the years as a coach. As a runner, I have personally been inspired by this man to want to exceed my own expectations within this sport. From his techniques, I had put myself into an experiment that strictly follows the teachings of his Track and Field guide entitled “High-performance Training for Track and Field.” In the book, he describes the three foundations of running; moderation, consistency, and rest. The next piece that I applied to my own running was his twelve principles of training; each person is an individual; set reasonable (but challenging) goals; have a master plan; base the plan on event-specific abilities; be flexible in the plan; develop good mechanics; “variety is the spice of life”; follow the hard-easy approach; “it is better to undertrain than over train”; observe the rules of good nutrition; use recreation for the “whole” person; get enough rest. I applied these methods to my own running in the past few months of my training before my track season had begun, and have notice serious improvement on my training and race times. Not only does my improvement in running prove that his methods work, but also show how his legacy lives on through runners in this day and age.
William Bowerman was a famed coach, mentor, and businessman; a true inspiration to all future coaches and athletes. His passion behind the sport of running gave him the drive to create a national appreciation towards track and field during his time and today. With the help of his team, Phil Knight, and his devoted wife Barbara, his dreams of perfecting the sport of running to Gold standards had become a great success. By inventing the first “all-weather” track, revolutionizing the concept of the running flat, and making his wise choice of becoming the cofounder of Nike, Bowerman was an exceptionally inspiring man of the 1960’s in the world of Track and Field. Having created so many new running techniques and holding strong to his personal style of coaching, Bowerman had set the stage for all future coaches and athletes, thus single handedly had changed the way America would view running forever.



WORKS CITED
·         "BILL BOWERMAN 1911-1999." Runner's World Apr. 2000: 22. Gale Biography in Context. Web. 9 Apr. 2011.
·         "Bill Bowerman." National Distance Running Hall of Fame. Web. 17 Feb. 2011. <http://www.distancerunning.com/inductees/2002/bowerman.html>.
·         "Bill Bowerman." NNDB: Tracking the Entire World. Web. 14 Mar. 2011. <http://www.nndb.com/people/592/000207968/>.
·         "Cross County Training." Hal Higdon. Web. 17 Feb. 2011. <http://www.halhigdon.com/crosscountry/cross.htm>.
·         "HickokSports.com - Biography - Bill Bowerman." HickokSports.com Main Menu. Web. 17 Feb. 2011. <http://www.hickoksports.com/biograph/bowerman.shtml>.
·         "Oregon Experience · Bill Bowerman · Home · OPB." Television, Radio, and News for Oregon and Southwest Washington · Oregon Public Broadcasting. Web. 17 Feb. 2011. <http://www.opb.org/programs/oregonexperiencearchive/billbowerman/>.
·         Bowerman, William J., William Hardin Freeman. High-performance Training for Track and Field. Champaign, IL: Leisure, 1991. Print.
·         Moore, Kenny. Bowerman and the Men of Oregon: the Story of Oregon's Legendary Coach and Nike's Cofounder. Emmaus, Pa.: Rodale, 2006. Print.


[1] A quote from Ch. 1 of “Bowerman And the Men of Oregon; The story of Oregon’s Legendary Coach and Nike’s Cofounder” by Kenny Moore

[2] &3 Oregon Experience · Bill Bowerman biography video

[4] "Bill Bowerman." NNDB: Tracking the Entire World
5 “Bowerman And the Men of Oregon; The story of Oregon’s Legendary Coach and Nike’s Cofounder” by Kenny Moore
[6] Quote from Ch. 17 “Bowerman And the Men of Oregon; The story of Oregon’s Legendary Coach and Nike’s Cofounder” by Kenny Moore
[7] "BILL BOWERMAN 1911-1999." Runner's World Apr. 2000: 22. Gale Biography in Context.

Poem::: Least Expected This

“Least Expected This…”

Sometimes I use to think the whole world had forgotten what it meant to be in love;
Oh, that feeling and the taste of a lover’s kiss.
When I was all alone and no one there to comfort me
I thought “I’m too young to give up hope.”
Then you see,
I got right down on my knees and looked up to the sky,
Prayed to God and asked him why,
Did everything I could.
I even wished upon a star just like fairytales would tell me to do.
Then I found you…
When I least expected it.

Some people think that it’s okay to feel hurt when you’re alone,
But when you’ve been alone inside your heart for so long you start to think “is it my fault?”
Well this could be true,
I know I’ve thought the same before,
But the people I loved and the things I used to know have changed in the past few days.
I’m still trying to figure out why…
That’s when I found your heart,
When I least expected it.

Poem::: Angel Poem

Y My Guardian AngelY
I
  Fall asleep with tears in my eyes,
Wondering how I ever got the strength or the courage to ask you why;
Why you adore me, why you shake me down to my very core.
Benevolence hath swung open these bolted doors,
Those that hold my heart close to my soul.
Lead with thy glorious light so I may see what had set me in my past plights.
Guide my foreboding eyes from darkness and give me hope;
Hope that your angelic presence will save me from all wrong I’ve done.
My Guardian angel, do not hide your eyes from me.
Your surpassing beauty is all I have to open these glaze washed eyes;
All you are and all you give, heels the wounds of my broken heart.
I tremble in my place,
Falling to my knees when your touch grazes my porcelain dusted face.
Heaven could not have made a more perfect being,
Nor could the inferno ever take you from me.
It is to my surprise,
However,
That I was to find you and you to have found me,
 A simple girl with dusty cheeks,
In a time when I needed someone like you the most,
I can now say I have never been touched by a more perfect man; one with an open heart and open arms.
O, how I have come to love you with all my heart!
This love of thine wrapped in silken vines, all so intricately intertwined with our hands and fingers.
Condemn me to the love I’ve found and let his sweet words linger in my dreams
  I shall pray this every night.

Poem: A Little Old Dream That Still Means a Lot

A Little Old Dream That Still Means a Lot

I remember like it was yesterday, not a year ago;
Just was thinking to myself
‘Things ain’t ever gunna be the same when this year is over.’
Had told myself I wouldn’t forget you,
Made a promise never to turn back around
And wait at the end of a never ending tunnel for the light that never could be reached…

But when I realized that you were there all along in my dreams,
A moment never passed when that light could not be reached.
I felt a warm embrace each night that ensued
And with every wandering reverie,
I thought that you were meant for me.
To have the truth be told I never want let this feeling go.
I’m not sure how to make you believe it,
But I see it those bright blue eyes,
When you fall asleep with me at night, thinking that it feels right.

This might be corny and a little beaten over the head…
I don’t have much more to say,
Other than this…
You’re perfect in every way.